RP. Just saw a picture you posted on facebook. and had the nerve to wear my shirt (which you borrowed and never returned) and another guy at some party.
Normally, wouldnt have minded it but fuck. All the mean things you did to me came flashing back. I definitely dont miss you. i definitely dont want you back. You may have been good to me 80% of the time but the 20% bad things you did really stand out.
Yes, i deserved all those things you did to me. I cheated. Multiple times. Im not offering any excuse for the things i did. But somehow, there's a tinge of anger towards you.
I couldn't get the last few years back. But i cant help thinking i shortchanged myself with having you around. I thought I was happy. I tried to convince myself that I was and I was content with having you around. But now, I keep thinking to myself if it was really love I felt? or that you were just too good to me and "why shouldnt I fall in love with him?"
You kept asking me how we became officially a couple because you forgot. Im ashamed to admit it. It was a decision. Not a feeling. Which was sad. I convinced myself that you were someone I liked to wake up next to. And for a few years, I believed that. But now that I look back, maybe it wasnt love after all. I just wanted to have someone good by my side.
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If anyone asks,
I'll tell them we both just moved on
When people all stare
I'll pretend that I don't hear them talk
Whenever I see you,
I'll swallow my pride
and bite my tongue
Pretend I'm okay with it all
Act like there's nothing wrong
If anyone asks,
I'll tell them we just grew apart
Yeah what do I care
If they believe me or not
Whenever I feel
Your memory is breaking my heart
I'll pretend I'm okay with it all
Act like there's nothing wrong
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