The one that started it all

JG. you started it all. i guess my career have spiralled down since then. never met a guy who resembled you. never felt the same way like i did with you. never genuinely liked someone back. never felt that kilig ever again. i tried to move on, really did. but in the end, i guess i was looking for you with the guys i met. 

so yeah, im saying goodbye now. sent you the last message i will at facebook. and this will be the last entry about you. all your messages have been erased and i dont know how to contact you anymore. i dont even assume anymore that we'll still me somewhere, sometime. glad to have known you.

I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

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But you didn't have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing
And I don't even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger and I feel so rough
No you didn't have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records and then change your number
I guess that I don't need that though
Now you're just somebody that I used to know