Silence

I prayed that i have peace of mind and peace of heart from all of these. and it has come. things have been quiet.

The issue has died down. The secondary issues coming from it has also died down. I could go on living, and not come into contact with any of the persons involved in that whole thing. 

It's helping having this peace and quiet. I get to be so productive. but sometimes, i wonder if somehow, i want to have some of the drama back. just so i have something else to do aside from work. then i realize how much i drank that time. and how miserable i was during the day. then i tell myself, nah. this is much better. 

so im steady. more and more each day. and i look forward to the day when im not just steady.. but excited once more. 

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loving can hurt... loving can hurt sometimes

but it's the only thing that i know

when it gets hard

you know it can get hard sometimes

it is the only thing that makes us feel alive

loving can heal... loving can mend your soul

and it's the only thing that i know