I... Complete Me

So i was talking with someone the other night and he goes:

"looking for a person that will love and take care of me. Para may katuwang na ko sa buhay. I'm a lonely guy"

And i was thinking, dude, you need to fix yourself first. If you need another person to make you happy then I guess you shouldn't be looking for a relationship. You'll become needy and over dependent. You'll want to be always by his side, and you'll be so paranoid when he's not around. You'll be clingy. You'll be stupid. Masasakal mo na sya in the process. and then, you'll be more alone.

After telling him, SHIT. I sounded so angry and tactless.

Well I guess I meant every word I said. Before, I had no idea when they said "Love yourself first before you love someone". And then I realized that it is very true.

I'm happy when I'm alone. Or I don't feel as self-conscious as those people who say "I cannot eat alone in public" or that "I can't watch a movie alone. It's so lonely". Well, I've tried both. Ate alone. Watched a movie alone. And it's not bad at all. You'll get the occasional stares from people but hey, what have you got to lose really? It's not like they know you. And what if they think youre a lonely, sad person? Would you even bother explaining yourself? Will it affect you? Damn right, it won't.

Life is about moments. And I try to live through each moment as they come by. And some of those moments happen when I'm alone. So I just take it all in, feel the experience, enjoy the emotions that come with that experience.

I once ate a slice of my favorite cheesecake while sitting on a bench at Times Square. This is the life. I felt each bite. I felt the cold wind brushing through my face. I see all the lights. I see all the people walking around, taking pictures. I can hear the bustle on the streets. I'm having the time of my life. Doing nothing. Thinking about nothing. Worrying about nothing. Just here.

They say it's better when you're with someone. I agree. But being alone does not mean you have to be lonely. It's up to you.




I will not waste my days 
Making up all kinds of ways 
To worry about some things 
That will not happen to me 

So I just let go of what I know I don't know 
And I know I'll only do this by 
Living in the moment 
Living our life 
Easy and breezy 
With peace in my mind 
With peace in my heart 
Peace in my soul 
Wherever I'm going, I'm already home 
Living in the moment