What Now?

I was chatting with someone the other night and he was sharing all his dreams before he reached 25. and then he asked me, what do I want to achieve?

It got me into thinking. And i answered, "I already have." Then he replied, "Good for you."

It got me further into thinking, is it really good for me?

So, all my life ive been wanting to be an "actor". So I went to "classes", "workshops", I studied, I trained. And when people ask me if I'm happy with what I'm doing, I'm more than proud to say YES. So what happens when suddenly.. Im now in "showbusiness", im an "actor", and a "best actor" at that?

I dreamed and reached for it. Now i have it. So what now?

What's next? I have no idea..

People say, do a "movie", or get another "best actor award", or do some workshops. And in the end, it doesnt compare to the goal i had of being an actor. Doing these additional things just brings flavor to what i have already become. And all of a sudden, Im found without purpose in life.

Get married? Tough. Have a family? Tougher. I just really don't know what to do anymore.

And finding a new hobby won't suffice. Im not looking for something to DO. Im looking for something to BE (aside from being an "actor").

So yeah, I'll be starting a new project soon. And it's bound to keep my busy and not have time to think about this. But when I imagine finishing the project, I'll come face to face again with "what now?"