dark side

There's a place that i knowit's not pretty there and few have ever goneif i show it to you nowwill it make you run away
or will you stayeven if it hurtseven if i try to push you outwill you return?and remind me who i really amplease remind me who i really am
everybody's got a dark sidedo you love me?can you love mine?nobody's a picture perfectbut we're worth ityou know that we're worth itwill you love me?even with my dark side?
like a diamondfrom black dustit's hard to knowwhat can becomeIf you give upso don't give up on meplease remind me who i really am

my shirt and all you took from me

RP. Just saw a picture you posted on facebook. and had the nerve to wear my shirt (which you borrowed and never returned) and another guy at some party.

Normally, wouldnt have minded it but fuck. All the mean things you did to me came flashing back. I definitely dont miss you. i definitely dont want you back. You may have been good to me 80% of the time but the 20% bad things you did really stand out.

Yes, i deserved all those things you did to me. I cheated. Multiple times. Im not offering any excuse for the things i did. But somehow, there's a tinge of anger towards you.

I couldn't get the last few years back. But i cant help thinking i shortchanged myself with having you around. I thought I was happy. I tried to convince myself that I was and I was content with having you around. But now, I keep thinking to myself if it was really love I felt? or that you were just too good to me and "why shouldnt I fall in love with him?"

You kept asking me how we became officially a couple because you forgot. Im ashamed to admit it. It was a decision. Not a feeling. Which was sad. I convinced myself that you were someone I liked to wake up next to. And for a few years, I believed that. But now that I look back, maybe it wasnt love after all. I just wanted to have someone good by my side.

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If anyone asks, 
I'll tell them we both just moved on 
When people all stare 
I'll pretend that I don't hear them talk 
Whenever I see you, 
I'll swallow my pride 
and bite my tongue 
Pretend I'm okay with it all 
Act like there's nothing wrong 


If anyone asks,
I'll tell them we just grew apart
Yeah what do I care
If they believe me or not
Whenever I feel
Your memory is breaking my heart
I'll pretend I'm okay with it all
Act like there's nothing wrong 

Almost But Not Quite

RAB. this is for you. ive settled and accepted that you and i arent happening. everything went by so fast, and everything was gone in just that one phone call. i dont hate you. im not angry. ive just given up on giving us a chance. so i guess ill see you around.

cheers. we never got around to these brands.

There was a time
I thought, that you did everything right
No lies, no wrong
Boy I must've been out of my mind
So when I think of the time that I almost loved you
You showed your ass and I, I saw the real you

Thank God you blew it
I thank God I dodged the bullet
I'm so over you
So baby good lookin' out

I wanted you bad
I'm so through with that
Cause honestly you turned out to be the (best thing I never had)
You turned out to be the (best thing I never had)
And I'm gonna' always be the (best thing you never had)
Oh yeah, I bet it sucks to be you right now

The one that started it all

JG. you started it all. i guess my career have spiralled down since then. never met a guy who resembled you. never felt the same way like i did with you. never genuinely liked someone back. never felt that kilig ever again. i tried to move on, really did. but in the end, i guess i was looking for you with the guys i met. 

so yeah, im saying goodbye now. sent you the last message i will at facebook. and this will be the last entry about you. all your messages have been erased and i dont know how to contact you anymore. i dont even assume anymore that we'll still me somewhere, sometime. glad to have known you.

I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

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But you didn't have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing
And I don't even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger and I feel so rough
No you didn't have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records and then change your number
I guess that I don't need that though
Now you're just somebody that I used to know