DI. This won't me my last entry for you but I just read a profile which exactly voiced what you wanted to tell me. And I tried.. I really did. But I guess you really can't force yourself to like/love someone. Sometimes, it's just really sex and maybe hanging out a bit.
So to COPY the profile..
I'm trying to make this work, but i don't receive any signs that it can, neither from you nor from anywhere else. You always have the reasons, the excuses, that now I am struggling to believe in. I'm beginning to doubt, most of the times cynical. I want to be with you, not merely to pacify my testosterone rush, but just for the sole reason that I want to be with you---caress you in my arms tightly making sure that I am by your side when you wake up. I want to listen to your pirated-dvd like yabang stories--how you performed at work, how your boss commended you, how large your biceps are...Never did those stories bore me. It may seem that I am not attentive to it, but believe me I enjoy listening to your stories, or even to your manly voice alone.
People get tired. I also do...I am trying to be patient but I need responses from you signifying that what I am doing to make this work is going to the direction we are both aiming at. Relationships are never one-sided and will never ever be. Just look at how it is spelled, with two letter Is. One for you and the other one for me. It takes two committed Is to be spelled correctly and to complete the word RELATIONSHIP.
Maybe I love you more than you love me...Or maybe, this is just a testosterone rush, never love. Maybe I am just so frustrated and envious because everyone around me has been falling in love for the past several weeks. I don't know...I'm confused...And this has to stop...
Just maybe, we were not meant really for love but for friendship instead. Hands up, weapons down. Will not bother you anymore.
Expect not to hear from me...
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You bored me with your stories
I can't belive that I endured you for as long as I did
I'm happy, it's over, I'm only sorry
That I didn't make the move before you
And when you go I will remember
To send a thankyou note to that girl, (oh that girl)
I see she's holding you so tender
Well I just wanna say...
(Just wanna say...)
I never really loved you anyway
No I didn't love you anyway
I never really loved you anyway
I'm so glad you're moving away
Valentino, I don't think so
You watching MTV while I lie dreaming in an MT bed
And come to think of it
I was misled
My flat, my food, my everything
And thoughts inside my head
I never really loved you anyway
No I didn't love you anyway
I never really loved you anyway
I'm so happy you're moving away
